If I'm supposed to be such a good fighter, how come I don't have any rank due to fighting? I'm the Bard, that's all.

I told Oger that if they keep calling me the Jester, I'm leaving. I have little enough self-esteem as it is without being the person officially laughed at.

If it's not that I'm a good fighter _now_, but I have the potential to be a great fighter...

...how come nobody's training me?

.....

I can't even clear my mind.

I'm sitting here with tears burning a path down my face.

I feel useless, unwanted, unskilled, and stupid.

That's the truth.

That's the truth of how I usually feel, too.